Hello Guys
This is gonna be a long sad story, and its a perfect recipe on how to break your USMLE DREAM!!
I hate to be writing about this but i have to, i have to tell someone before i explode and cry!! I think what i was afraid of , just happened![]()
I started studying USMLE step 1 almost 2 years ago... Had a lot of family issues amd personal issues, got engaged, married, new job , then left the job , then another job, then moved to US.... Buttomline, my 2 years were a total mess... And thats y i postponed my exam multiple times.....From June... To August... To October... then Late October.... The. Late November until i could not postpone it anymore, and i honestly got sick of the depression it brought me
I suck at studying, i admit it... I was sooo disorganized, took a whole year to read books, then another 6 months to kinda link them with first aid, then almost 6 Months doing DIT over and over and over..... stupid? I KNOW!
In the meantime, i did questions, a lot of questions.... But since i am stupid and lazy i actually did not finish more than 80% of Uworld...one time... Wanna hear more??? Average score 50-55%!!!!
Decided to do NBMEs... Did a couple before final revisions which i failed, then did nbme 13 and 15 and i got the exact same score both times ....194!!!!
To add insult to injury, went to exam today... Felt i did like CRAAAAP! First block was ok, second was so and so, third block i did know what the hell was EVERY QUESTION about, 4 th was crap, 5-8 were not so much better!! AND i couldnt reach the last 3-5 questions in ANY BLOCK! So i just randomly assigned them!!!
Why is this guy writing about this?? He's an obvious failure.... I know that this is what you're thinking guys....i just need your help with what to expect, i suspect by 80% that ill fail this test, and 15% of me says ill just get 192, less than 5% of me says more than that... I was dreaming of IM Residency, and thats y i moved to the states one year ago and started working in research while i study, but now the dream is BREAKING.... Everything is falling... I am officially going to be marked STEP 2CS PASS, STEP 1 FAIIIILLLL!!!!!!
I hope anyone who had a similar experience can tell me what should i do now? Return to studying? Quit usmle? Go back to my country???? Bang my head to a wall??? Or what???? I am really tired and confused and i don't wish any of u will feel wat i feel right now
Thank you for reading
This is gonna be a long sad story, and its a perfect recipe on how to break your USMLE DREAM!!
I hate to be writing about this but i have to, i have to tell someone before i explode and cry!! I think what i was afraid of , just happened

I started studying USMLE step 1 almost 2 years ago... Had a lot of family issues amd personal issues, got engaged, married, new job , then left the job , then another job, then moved to US.... Buttomline, my 2 years were a total mess... And thats y i postponed my exam multiple times.....From June... To August... To October... then Late October.... The. Late November until i could not postpone it anymore, and i honestly got sick of the depression it brought me
I suck at studying, i admit it... I was sooo disorganized, took a whole year to read books, then another 6 months to kinda link them with first aid, then almost 6 Months doing DIT over and over and over..... stupid? I KNOW!
In the meantime, i did questions, a lot of questions.... But since i am stupid and lazy i actually did not finish more than 80% of Uworld...one time... Wanna hear more??? Average score 50-55%!!!!
Decided to do NBMEs... Did a couple before final revisions which i failed, then did nbme 13 and 15 and i got the exact same score both times ....194!!!!
To add insult to injury, went to exam today... Felt i did like CRAAAAP! First block was ok, second was so and so, third block i did know what the hell was EVERY QUESTION about, 4 th was crap, 5-8 were not so much better!! AND i couldnt reach the last 3-5 questions in ANY BLOCK! So i just randomly assigned them!!!
Why is this guy writing about this?? He's an obvious failure.... I know that this is what you're thinking guys....i just need your help with what to expect, i suspect by 80% that ill fail this test, and 15% of me says ill just get 192, less than 5% of me says more than that... I was dreaming of IM Residency, and thats y i moved to the states one year ago and started working in research while i study, but now the dream is BREAKING.... Everything is falling... I am officially going to be marked STEP 2CS PASS, STEP 1 FAIIIILLLL!!!!!!
I hope anyone who had a similar experience can tell me what should i do now? Return to studying? Quit usmle? Go back to my country???? Bang my head to a wall??? Or what???? I am really tired and confused and i don't wish any of u will feel wat i feel right now
Thank you for reading